
Quality information is available, but it can take some digging to get to it. If we think of the internet as a library, it would be like if register adjacent tabloids and flyers handed to you on the street by conspiracy theorists were filed in the most prominent shelf spaces amongst the reference books. It took me some time to figure out that Google is the confessional of our anxieties, the most commonly typed in fears get boosted, and higher quality links with more technical language tend to lag behind as we often don’t know what keywords will give us the answers we are looking for. I wasn’t yet familiar with the idea of confirmation bias or that search engines had a lot of first page hits for poor sources because of the way the search algorithms work. The problem was, most of what I was reading was misinformation designed to exploit my fears. I set out on a path of sleepless nights to figure out what those reasons might be, and the internet can certainly deliver on that front. Her suggestion that I followed could have cost my son his life, but it took me almost two years to figure out why. This was the first and last communication we had about vaccination, but filtered through my trust for her it planted a seed of doubt and convinced me at the time there was a good reason to avoid it. The woman who had been a mentor to me in my career, with whom I had entrusted my life and that of my child through my pregnancy and birth, whispered in my ear a few minutes after my son was born to not let the hospital give him the hepatitis B vaccine. I was sleep-deprived, had postpartum anxiety, and was scared of something I had not previously thought that much about before having kids. Figuring out the quality of sources, that would separate good from bad science, took me a long time.
